J.I.N

~ There is nothing either good or bad, only thinking makes it so ~ 

                                 ~ William Shakespeare~

Just like the tragic prince in the heart-wrenching Hamlet, a hero defends the lone kingdom as the last heir of the kingdom. There are numerous things in life which we are unable to see through. Most of the time people tend to get blinded by the fog. What lies ahead? They tend to ask. It may be something which you long yearn for or maybe the other way round.

The tragic of life is that everyone is just like a helpless hero. Fighting endlessly to meet their demands and fullfil thier needs in life. What’s even saddening is the fruitless wrestle with life. From overwhelming grieve to seething rage, we brace ourselves to move on. Never knew what’s hidden behind the mist, we can only guess as they said “Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a gift. And that’s why they called it present”. I suppose the everday present is fill of joy and wonder. Though the tragic hero is alone, but deep inside he is never alone…never..

The wound left on me,

Begins to ache,

Though excruciating,

I hide my trembling heart and pretend to smile,

It has been long,

It seemed like it had freezed,

The season I have been waiting for seems drifting further,

I shut the sight that sees the world,

And streams flow down from the eyes,

I have been enduring,

Tremble as the heart leaps,

Disheartening as the dampened spirit,

Everything suddenly become unclear,

When time passes by,

What will be left for me,

My  heart going to to wish for a miracle?…….

Or just a………..scar….

Unfeigned,

I am helpless to the immutable reality,

Pine over the long yearn freedom,

Yet,

Torpid by the never ending flow of tasks,

Being ameliorate to the eerie dusk,

Is a strength that deny obliteration,

Teeter on the edge of nothing,

Contentious lips to lips chat,

Contrite to the path taken,

Who is culpable for the melancholy?

The journey has been torpid,

I put my hands together and pray,

That I would not be vilify by it,

Reticent as the silent spring,

Enervate by the scorching summer,

Assuage by the innocuous autumn,

Discretion as the emollient winter,

When the snow melts,

I believe the city would be vivid and colorful,

Once again

A drige was carved on an untainted sheet,

Though elegy,

The essence of ebullience was found in it,

Was it carved down because of dearth of courage?

Or was it  because of the feeling of hatred and rage?

Enigmatic and obscure owing to reticent,

The scent of demur rose as one finally awaken,

From a fallacious faith,

Nebulous loyalty and inured reality,

Sordid characters of humanity,

I have seen them with perspicacity,

I choose to take my eyes off veracity,

Zealous,

The air seems to be heavy

And the rocks are resonating,

Idolatrous,

The demons were fated to be slayed

And so, I am here with an eulogy to you all….

Wouldn’t it be nice,

If we could throw away the unneedies,

But reality turns out to be cruel,

Whenever I close my eyes,

You are there smiling to me,

The sweetest of all grins,

Yet it brought me with all the bitter pain without you,

Are all people sad?

Are thier skies painted grey?

Things that begin will always have an ending,

Stand by my side, will you?

As the future we haven’t yet seen remains here,

We talked overnights about our futures and the moments,

I felt they were so dazzling and precious,

Those recalled were so dear to me,

Again, somewhere in this city today,

Two people spilt apart,

The curtains are quietly dropped,

Begining comes at random,

But endings always have a reason,

What can I tell you?

I am just a small, helpless person,

That’s all I say for now,

Because sometimes words are completely powerless,

May the wings on ur back lead your heart,

To a shoulder you are looking for,

Eventhough it might not be mine,

But I casted my wishes and blessing on the wind,

And they will reach you somewhere out there,

When we met,

We were so awkward,

We have taken the long road,

But we have finally arrived……..

Slumbering spring awaken as winter goes by,

Chirping of birds fill the sky with enchanted melody,

Th girl in white with the soft hair squat in the field of flowers,

As her heart fill with envy from the passing lovers,

Her solemness and devotion to her flowers was mesmerizing,

With all her heart shielding them from being annihilating,

On her way home from a bustle of city,

Though it was no different from the other day,

She thought she would repeat such a pattern of life,

And recalled that promises turned out to be lies,

That is when tears welled up in her eyes,

Feeling weak and wretched,

Uneasy and lonely,

She need some warmth,

A faint voice reached her deep within,

A ray of light shone into her darkness,

She smiled and knew her prayers were answered,

They go along together,

He looked into her captivating eyes and say,

"Whatever incidents may come to, don’t forget,

I will always be by your side,"

On the days of tears and on the days of smiles,

They walk side by side,

Everyone walks on to meet just one person someday,

And I will walk on again,

To meet you……

Hell yeah that’s enough…….what happened to all the merry which used to surround me?…Where have all the compassion and care for each other went?…Since when all this turn out to be a nightmare which haunt for years?…

Harmonious descriptions have been eliminated by the sycthe of misfortune and unhappiness…people turned their back on each other and like a mug which has been shattered into pieces, the never healing wound is there…forever….

Just like an angel who lost his wings and fall into an abyss..I have lost what I used to possessed…No matter how hard i try to clinch on it, happiness escaped from my clutches..

Who should I put the blame to?….I don’t know for myself either…

People said I didn’t share my sorrows….what’s the point to burden others with your own load…I don’t see that’s necessary…

I have seen enough of the ugly side of the world….And I believe the only escape from it is to flee from it…I have it in mind…All of it…And I shall never ever stop detest…

They harped that one should let go what he or she is holding before get hold of new things…But I say, they all are only good in preaching on things which they don’t practise..

All the hardship, the sorrows, the dysfucntional unit….who has ever been through it never forgets…..Never…ever….

On the day three man arrived on Earth,

A will kept them to stand to each other,

But the war of the beast brings about the world end,

Wings of light and dark spread afar,

Somehow it hurts,

Reality is a traitor,

It’s easy to misjudge things,

With thier own eyes,

They decided thier stand for themselves,

And thier fate were scattered by wars,

One becomes a hero,

One wanders the land,

One taken as prisoner,

Though they are apart,

They were bounded by a solemn oath,

The hero is hiding his lonelliness behind his fame and glory,

The wanderer wonders where to seek for shelter from rain and sun,

The prisoner although escaped but is gravely wounded and hurted,

His life was saved,

By a woman of oppositing nation,

And he begun a life a seclusion with her,

But as happiness grow,

So does guilt for not fulfilling his oath to the other two,

He choosed to be guided by the hope and the gift that will being blessing,

And took on a new path,

Though the oaths were broken and gone with the wind,

In thier hearts,

Three of them know that they will meet again,

Never gave up tomorrow without the fear of fighting,

Maybe everyone in order to protect love and promises,

Maybe everyone wishes to believe in something,

Someday……………………

Adios to the days where I can enjoy myself without piles of notes waiting for me to go through. I must say it has really been a great 3 months holidays. Everything went smooth sailing for my internship, that’s something I am really thankful of. Nevertheless, all works but no play makes Jack a dull boy. Given this chance here, I thank you my bro, Soo Min for the adventurous and fruitful weekend outings around the island. The legendary Phileas Fogg and Passepartout went around the world in 80 days, but JY & SM went around the island in 8 weeks..Kudos to us…haha..Dun forget our hallmark "old place"..*evil smile*

Good times doesn’t last, I believe everyone went through that. Quite a let down I must say as I have let my hair down for 3 months, I have to start my quest again. This time, its the very last of it. Something I have been looking forward to. Its a mere 9 months and its going to be sizzling and sorching hell. But when its over, devils will begin to skate in hell as it will go sub zero..haha…Speaking of sub zero, I had a lovely Christmas cum shopping  trip and there are some attachments which fits the quote ‘ a picture worths a thousand words.’

Argh….there is some problem with my connection. D*mn you ISP in Malaysia. There is nothing but a bloody d*mn poor service. I guess I can never expect to see a good and quality service at here, especially…………Nah…we all know inside out. There is no need to spell it out. Well, guess I have to edit this post in the future when my connection is a little better. * pray hard *

Anyway, its time to hit the road and man handle the upcoming project. Best of luck and kudos again for the upcoming achievements. 

Adios 07, Kudos 08

It was reported in the media nation wide that huge crowd gathered around to witness the launching of the first ever astronaut into the space. People cheered and felt proud that the country has moved a step further and made history. Loud roaring claps like thunder when the rocket blasted away. And today, no doubt that it hits the headlines of how great the achievement was.

As a matter in fact, when the rocket took off to space, there goes the hard earned money of tax payers. *boom!! there goes cash* I wonder what’s in their skull..brain you say?…certainly not!!….more like sh*t in their skull than brain. Fancy for them to throw in millions of cash just to send an ______ to space. What is the purpose of this. To show the world that the people can take the flag out of earth to space? CHILDISH IGNORANCE fool. Then what. Brag to the world that they have been to space IN OTHER’S SPACESHIP. 

Maybe they should consult and optometrist and have their eye-sight examined. There are so many problems await to be solve. Why don’t they pump in the money to upgrade the public transport or mend the road which has a surface worse than moon’s. The truth is, public transport in the country is a hell shit lame. You wait for a train with 3 to 4 coaches with a frequency of 20 minutes and combo with a stench. You have to brave the hot sun and pouring rain to wait for bus at the ”well built" bus stop. You have to risk your life taking bus which operated by a driver who is inspired to be Micheal Schumachear. And you have to make sure you have enough money when you take cab, as the cabbies will prepare their sharp samurai knife to cut away a huge chuck off your wallet. Most of all, the trains and buses are in a run down condition, much like those cast away technologies by developed countries.

I wonder they will feel shame for calling themselves a developed country. All they want is just instant achievement and solve temporary existing problems. No plans to curb future problems. All they know is just bull-sh*t and empty promises. If there is ever any drawback occur I guess Mr. Carpet is ready to lift up itself for Mr. Broom to do the cleaning stuff. No wonder it is always in a ""spick and span"" condition as everything is swept beneath our beloved Mr. Carpet. Sooner or later I guess Mr. Carpet will take over Taipei 101 building in terms of height. *""cheers"" for the ""achievements"" with tax payers hard earned money*