J.I.N

Before I starting babbling about my 21st grand and splendid party,allow me to pen down this spectacular phenomenon which I have encountered.

It was 11pm and me and my best friend were working out our muscles with a game of basketball..as we were busy with the slam dunks and shooting..suddenly i was shocked by a yell.."LOOK!!!!!!!!"…..I turned around and look up high in the dark sky..A bird?..A plane?…A Superman?…Duh…Nope..It’s a shooting star..hehe =P  without hesitating,I dropped the ball in my hand and quickly put my hands together and pray..it was only a glimpse..but in the nick of time,i manage to cast my wish on the shooting stars..haha..as for my unlucky friend,he thought it was fireworks and he wanted to wait for it until it explode in the sky..haha..too bad my friend..after that he asked  me,"is that a shooting star?"..in order to comfort him,I told him that is was just his hallucination..next time perhaps my friend..done with the shooting star part..now let’s get to some real business..haha

First of all,Saturday,27th February 2006,7pm..That’s the starting point of my party as I flag off for the starting of my 21st birthday party(my exact birthday is suppose to be on 1st of March though) ..Go!!!!!!!!…..As I was still busy dressing up..here come all those relatives of mine swarming into the little humble house of mine..not to forget my beloved friends too..haha..but still I manage to make it and welcome them one by one..Right after welcome them,i welcome thier present..haha =P

Hmm…I never felt that happy as that day as my house were flooded with people..The feeling is so great and it is hard to put them into words..so,inorder to make things easy..i will upload some pictures along with this blog =P

Haha..just some of the pictures which I took..Hmm..that’s all folks..before coming to an end..I would like to take this opportunity to thanks all of them who purposely make thier way back to bp from kl and as well singapore..thanks alot dudes..I really appreciate it and I am touched within..thanks for giving me a memorable 21st birthday party..cheers! =P

As the expression in the title,no doubt,I am in a bloody foul mood again..I wonder when this kind of stupid life of mine will end..I am tired of this journey..My leg is cramping and I don’t have the will to move forward..sigh..The day which will determine the turning point of my life is coming soon..I wonder what I will get..I am fretting over it..It is either I get to travel a brand new road which is the one I desired for or just die of disappointment..sigh…I don know what to do..I prayed sincerely,truthfully and earnestly and just hope that I could get what I want..I prayed hard everyday,just to hope that I will manage to secure a place..All I ever need is a chance..please..

A year has passed by in the blink of an eye..As the numerical number increases one by one as the years passed by,suddenly I realise I am on the road to claim my Golden Key of Freedom..Yes..21 years old..that is it..knocking on my door real soon..hmmp..I am looking forward for it but on the same time I am not..dilemma isn’t..sigh..i have got used to the cold and lonely birthday for 20 years..there is no exception this year..haha  =/

The older we get the more confuse we are..What is the purpose of living?..You were borned,raised up,educated,work,marriage,get old and then leave this world,sometimes even without a goodbye..Dilemma dilemma dilemma..For me at this stage of my life,I feel empty..sigh..I have aims and goals..But my life is just……………………..Ah…….I don know how to put that into words..it is just too hard to explain..maybe i will put it in this way..falling into a bottomless abyss..haha..

As far as I know,me and my buddy talked about this before..and in the end,both of us couldn’t describe that kind of feelling but on the other hand,I knew how he felt and vice versa..

Maybe there are too many unsures in our life..the road ahead is dark and covered with thick mist and fog..and we are the one who suppose to walk through the darkness in order see what is awaiting for us..is it something big  or the other way round..we don’t know..as we are still on our journey to reach the destination where we are suppose to go..pacing forward in fear and excitement..mixed feelings i guess..for those weak hearts,prepare yourself..haha =P

As a Chinese idiom said "一种米养百种人"…and this is really true..everyone leads thier own unique life..a life totally different from others..you have your way and I have mine..but the sad things is sometimes we won’t be able to travel the road which we yearn for..Instead,we have to go the long way to reach the destination and sometimes the harsh reality will not give us a chance to glimpse the road which we want,not to mention trekking it down..sigh..why can’t everyone get what they desire for?..will there be chaos if everyone manage to get hold on what they want?..Will there be answers to our life?..i certainly hope so with a dim of hope  =)