J.I.N

"The freedom you have is so dazzling."

Said a boy,

"Even if I don’t know the purpose of my existance?"

I replied,

Mankind is a creature,

That yearns for the things which they doesn’t possess,

What is it…

That we truely want to have a piece of,

The boy was struggling in fear,

When he noticed that he was devoured by the cold lonelliness,

As if he is shivering in freezing winter without warmth,

Then,

He had a new understanding,

That we always open the window for tomorrow,

"By dreaming?"

A voice came up within him,

Nothing is everlasting in this world,

Seasons come and go,

Flowers bloom and wilt,

Rainbows appear and fade,

But still,

Flowers are waiting for us,

In a place we haven’t place our eyes on,

Before we were used to being bored,

And our time passed quickly,

Even if it’s the end of the world,

Even if onlookers laughing me for trying in vain,

I"ll go on and stay put for you,

Because nothing is as fearful as giving up,

You are the reason I live for,

You are the air I breathe,

You are the only world,

Which spins on my orbit….

                  " Life is like a novel..many chapters..read and forgotten "

The above phrase holds true for every single homosapiens on the place created my Mother Nature.Being a homosapiens,I am no exception..So far,I have self narrate my life journal for 21 years..Many sweet and beautiful moments were penned down in this novel of mine..Not to forget those painful,miserable and distressing reminiscences..

Previous chapters were hectic and life was in a total mess..backtracking those chapters,I suddenly recalled that some of them were burned by the ferocious fire..and some were devoured by the traceless time..I have live up to now..Though it’s miserable when things are against you.."That’s life!" and that is all i could ever quote..Everyone yearns for a smooth sailing life where things pop up accordingly from thier meticulous planning..Who doesn’t covet for such life..Life is full of setbacks and obstacles..the road ahead sure is not a traveller friendly one..

Basically,it is just a matter of balance…imagine,what will happen to earth if there is no rain and living beings are thirst to death..what will happen to mankind if there is no sun and we have to live in eternal darkness..Things just happen as the way it is..pain will strike anyone and cause make one’s life tough..tears will drop when you start to yearn for something which is beyond your reach..which in the end will cause the heart to smash into smithereens..

Chapter twenty one of my live journal,it is hard as it seems..I certainly don’t have a clue on what will happen in the future..People said that you mold your own future..hence,regardless any hardships..preseverence is the key and patience is the remendy of it all..In life,nothing is as fearful as giving up..chapter twenty one,you are going to end it in awe-inspiringly..

Question!..How to avoid from shedding tears while cutting onions?..Some people might said that by not looking at it..Do they ever think that they will cut thier hand in return?..By looking at it,you will bleed viscerally in the heart..by not looking at it,you will bleed superficially..If you all were give a chance to choose..Would you choose to bleed superficially or internally?..Tough!

As for me,I would choose to looking at the onions while handling it..It is the same when it comes to love..By looking on someone you deeply in love with live in happiness,it is a blessing..though the hand that hold her might not be you..sadly..but just by seeing her wishes bring granted and found her happiness,I would feel the joy for her too..still,the pain exist and everytime,a smile will cover the sadness and bury the tears..Others might not agree with me as thier male chauvinism overcome them..am i right?

As the saying goes,Man propose God dispose..things will never turn out the way as you want it to be..the synonyms for reality is cruel,harsh and callous..Love theory,rule one,chapter one..Appreciate while it is still there..As I always toe the line for this rule..I would always appreciate the one I love and never let go of them..but in the end,mishaps always occure

On contrary,tons of people out there tagged me with the word casanova and flirt..for me,it is not my style to clear the air between me and those misunderstood freaks,unless you are someone who is important to me..since they jump to the conclusion that I am appalling and atrocious,let them be..My conscience is clean and clear!…

Eden..as the word suggest,it is a place where no sorrows and full of joys all the time..but in this eden of mine..all I could smell is the air of sorrow and feel the excruciating pain…thats what exist in my eden..fine then,maybe it’s nice for me to change Romeo’s eden into Romeo’s eternal doom….nice name though..

My world has started spinning backwards,

The acceleration has increased,

When I noticed,

It was dark before my feet,

I am standing at the edge of the clift,

Gentle maples fall off from the dearest tree,

White snow melts away and kiss goodbye to winter,

Burning sun drains the gift of God from the well,

Our eyes meet again,

My heart throb and I hide my feelings behind a smile,

As I am afraid I might go back to the times,

Which I had not known you,

We have come to know each other little by little,

But sadly,

Everything was seems like two parallel lines,

My love grew when we can’t meet,

My heart aches because my voice didn’t reach you,

I will always be by your side,

Though I can do nothing else,

On the days of tears and on the days of smiles,

I will always be by your side,

Everyone walks on,

To meet just one person someday,

Over the wide horizon out there……….

The loyal pawns have falled on thier knees at the frontline..Mighty castles have been destructed..Courageous knights perished with the dashing horses..The swords fall together with the valiant bishops..Influential queen was sent to meet her Maker..Lastly,the head of almighty king rolled down..It was waterloo!!!!!!!..

The crushing defeat in that game of chess above best resemble the bloody hectic day of mine..Everything was broken into pieces from the very moment i saw the message from hell,which is the 3rd Maths’ test of mine..I really like to scold foul words here..forget about uncivilized,uncultured or whatsoever..If I could describe the lecturer with 3 words,that would be F**K,F**K and stil F**K…No doubt that I am weak in Maths and I am partly responsible for the trounce..beat it!!…I have tried my very best..I have drained all my brain cells..I have poured in all the effort..But did the bloody F**KER did?..I doubt so..by assuming that we know everything..by giving some examples..by skipping the questions which he himself don’t know to solve..by doing those things will be termed responsible and dedicated lecturer?…oh hell no!..maybe he just try to make a living there and draw his salary without even feeling guilty of what he did..ahhhhhhhhh…..just forget about it…what will be will be…no use for me to criticise that fellow in my eden..haha

Well,there is indeed a turning point today which lift my spirit that hit the rock bottom before this..the skating outing at Sunway Pyramid is cool..as usual,the rink was flooded with people..after manage to squeeze my feet into the skate………….let’s rock!!!!……Due to the large crowd and all the actions of shunning,I fell down twice and wet my jeans..urgh!!!…that was awful because the rink was wet and……you know don’t you…on the other hand,the joyful thing is I found the accurate and authentic skating skills..haha…thou i am not as professional as those proficient skaters..but I manage to skate very well I might say..haha..In the end of the day,I got the right skill to skate and as well some bruises on my feet plus a pair of sore legs..sigh…really…it is a day of mix emotions..i do hope the coming days will be fine.. =)